Memento Vivere

Remember to Live.

A journey of emotional trauma and struggles.

Movement for mental health.

07.01.26

This is another normal day for me. I was exhausted from school while writing this. My head is aching, it feels like its going to burst. I was nervous early in the morning about my Advance Oral Communication class. It was my first time to perform an extemporaneous speech in front of people I barely knew. That was my exam actually, luckily, I was able to perform without passing out. I have a huge problem speaking in front of people that sometimes I feel like passing out. Until the time I was done speaking my body didn't stop from shaking. I felt like my classmates are looking at me naked and judging me while I was performing. 

I got 90/100 even though my nervousness is obvious, my teacher is also smiling the whole duration I was speaking. I knew because he was the only person I was looking at the whole time I was speaking in front. He was the first person to say that it was okay to be anxious on the stage. Its okay to be nervous as long as we grow and improve. Honestly he was scary because he is strict, however I've grown to appreciate that strictness because he understands us. He understand what we feel as his students. 

I have another exam tomorrow about Human Rights and Ethics then a quiz about Violence Against Women and their Children. I have a lot of pages to read but I felt like I need to write this before reading again. Am I finding an excuse? May be. My brain really felt like its going to burst even though I already drunk lots of water and took medicine. I slept at the library before going to my next class at school but it wasn't enough to stop my head from hurting.

It hurts more especially because our last teacher commanded us to perform 25 jumping jack exercise with 2 repetitions. After performing the 25 she added 10 more all because one of my classmates told her that he was sleepy. We argued that if he was sleepy he perform it all by himself but our teacher stated that all for one, one for all. We didn't have a choice but to perform.

Going back, my brain can't really digest what I'm reading. My energy is draining and I want to spend my last energy writing this before I go to sleep.

I can review again tomorrow after my morning class at the library. Anyway this is where I end. Bye!