You are not alone
Have you ever felt that you have no place in the future even in the present? Have you ever thought of disappearing like you never exist? If you're not. I'm so happy for you. If you are, you are not alone. In my entire existence in this world, I experience being happy, sad, angry, curious, anxious, depress, exhausted, etc. but what I hate the most is that... I feel nothing which makes me feel existing but not living. In those times, dark thoughts always come into my mind. Thoughts like: What if I disappear? What if I die? What if I don't exist? Am I just tired? Am I burn out? How do I live? How do I survive? When those thoughts arrives I suppress them by reading novels, web comics, watching dramas, or sleeping. I kept myself busy. I can't confront those thoughts, maybe I am afraid, maybe I fear it but why? Why am I having those kind of thoughts? Why do I feel empty? There are lots of unpleasant things happening around me, to the point that if I became too hap...